last and start!

today is the last day of 2010..
today is the last posting in surgery...
and
i fall a sick.
hope is the last day of my sickness... shu shu...
here welcome my pretty new 2011!!!

revealed of the year,

times fly.

so fast a year gone.

so many things had happened..

start will early of 2010,

i went to genting and countdown with my bidor frens..
but this year i didn't. Prof 2 exam is ahead. and realy wish me good luck. i so scare to fail it... ><
anyway, im sick! so... p/s : i oso confuse wat m i typing... lols

then here go my sem 2 of year 2...

1st day of it was my Big Day!! ^^ haha... so fast a a year gone...
like jz happened yesterday..

research time.
omg paeds, u all stop crying can anot??!!!
but anyway, finished our job at last after so many difficulities and conflict!! ^^

then v gone thru prof 1 exam!!
v studied and v passed!!! ^^ hope prof 2 same as well..

after exam... Singapore time!!!
in my memory, i been there b4 when i was super young~
now, iki, me, keith, yongli, julian, jinkit and hooi... a gang of best frens hao hao dang dang de go!! ^^


then super damn fast!!!
a new sem come... here new buddy come in and say bye to dr sim ^^

CLINICAL YEAR!!!
woohoo~ i cant imagine v are in 3rd year that time~
we know nothg and felt afraid in clinical.
but... see...
so fast MEDICINE posting gone thru liao...
thx for prof chris, Dr Hiew, Dr Kow etc etc..
u all teach alot and i learnt too *p/s: does nt mean i remember!><
clerking, present, short case, long case, murmur, creps, rhochi, reflex bla bla bla~~

after the mock exam of medicine... a gang of fren went up to casino!! ^^
haha

then here i stepped into SURGERY posting..
initially i so scared of those surgeon.
their aura are so strong~
but truely...
all surgeon they are so yao ying!!!
Prof Liew, veli kind fahter like and knowledgable!!
Mr Gee, oh... u are a crazy man!!! u are brilliant and nice wei~ ^^
and Prof Meah... u are so sweet and learnt lots from u~ ^^
and today...
lasted the posting and here fighting for prof 2!!
good luck to me and alls.

and in between wat i mention. of coz there are friend's bufday celebration.
v all grown up and x playing those funny game like 1st sem of 1st year ady.
just normal a dinner with the bufday stars~

and of coz...
thru out the year,
sad,
happy,
nervous,
tension,
excited,
all emotion i went thru.

thx to my friends
my family
my supervisors and lecturers
my patients
the strangers around me

and of coz YOU,

haha...
thx for u guys..
lighten my 2010.

and here come our 2011!!!
wish all ppl,
all the best!!
and healthy alwis~ ^^

hohoho~

MERRY CHRISTMAS to u all~

wish to see once such romantic Christmas environment in my life time lo!

may all people...
bless all people..
happy and stay healthy alwis!!!

and happy new year ahead<3

mock exam

mock exam for surgery is on going...

and nxt week will be the last week of the posting and here go 2 weeks of study week b4 the nightmaire of prof exam 2!

2day...
seriously,
i felt disappointed to my performance!

sorry mr gee..
sorry for myself!

when put in panic and stress... i could not think even i noe the ans.

haizz...
what ashame...

medical doctor to be??

i dun1 to harm my patients...

i wonder..
would i pass and keep on my journey??

bless me!!!
gambateh!

汤圆！

谢谢aj， 泯俊等人~
谢谢你们的汤圆！！！

冬至，
后悔没有跟家人过节。
但起码，

你们温馨的汤圆
令我感动！真的！

汤圆就像生日蛋糕~
俩者都是一年一次~
都是吃过了，大一岁！

可是，
却有人认为
“汤圆。反正不重要！一年才一次！”

唉~
我只能说：
我们想法很不同！

anyway~

汤圆！
我今年吃过了！！！
我有大一岁了！！！
^^

sometimes,
i do get disappointed still..

冬至快乐

原来，你们在偷偷留意我 -full stop-

寒冷的夜晚，雨嘀嗒嘀嗒

每当夜深人静

躺在床上

头脑开始要休息时

我
都会

想起你。

recently

recently nthg went right with me

is not emo..
i control it well de... believe me... i reali think myself veli 厉害 ady!
but then...
if a building without any support...
who wont fall down??

the suck ever is that u are restricted and profited to get into any bad mood anymore...
then...

who gonna to dig me out fr the hole?
who gonna to shine for me?

supposingly is you..
but almost the result end up disappointing.

but yet i proud of myself being controlling and try to make the thing alright back...
BY MY OWN!!!

yes!!! my own~


who's on earth can understand me???

my friends..
my academics..
my partner...
my figure aka appearance..
my personality..
exam..

allllll those suck thing strike me in a same moment.

i cant digest it man!!!

i m tired la...
i insomnia for quite sometimes ady...

u all thinking im enjoying life???
perhaps... u are the one who enjoying life.

i x say im pity!

i still can cope with it...

i hope god...
be fair to me abit...
gib me back my basic need.

lead me back the right track!

i will try my own best..
but

seriously~

i need HELP and support..

想通了，看开了

想通了
看开了

虽然有时还会难过

但

此时此刻

我是ok的！
^^

don't ask why..

just be my side...

a hug maybe automatically reveal u the reason in the end.

try.

有一种爱叫放手

有一种爱叫放手

是问天下有何几伟大的人物？

你是其中一位吗？

我是吗？

appreciate life plss...

i think the whole malaysian know what is happening..
the hottest news!

haizz...
i do reali felt sad..
sad x becoz of his death.. is due to... what the hell on earth still got such brainless ppl exist in the world...
is it valuable just for LOVE?? u think u are veli "wei da" and all ppl will sympathy u and blame the girl???
NOPE!!! IDIOT RUBBISH!!!

have u go to the hospital before???
went to ICU??? or critical zone???
the patients are so ill and chronic yet they are trying their veli best to gasp the air to survive...
they got cancersssss, infectionsssssss, amputationsssssss, chronic illness...

BUT THEY WANT SURVIVE!!!

family members and patients with tears and begging us doctors to save us.
we are trying the best to save them.

but sad for the world...
some idiot rubbish still choose to die for love..

commit suicide..

jump down like a superman u think u are hero??
and guilty to the girls???

pls la...

ur organs except for the brain... at least can be used to save other chronic patients who want to survive!

i duno why u take life as so fragile and like a fun playing~
it totally pissed off.
anyway,
r.i.p

and for others...

love ur life no matter wat happening...
love ur life more than loving others!!!

think about the chronic patients who wish to survive.

i miss home

i miss home again.. although few days before i just went back..

home is so nice...

nice in the way...
got TV (at least got some sounds around)
got daddy and mummy (although they will only be at home at night... at least i got something to talk and discuss with them)

NOW,
4 cool walls surrounding me...

the environment does not sound nice. (perhaps it was nice initially)

no topic.

nothing.
nothing in my mind now. except..

i miss home..

Tangled/Rapunzel Soundtrack - I See The Light (with lyrics on screen)

Rapunzel~

"i love you so much, dear"
"i love you more"
"i love you most!!"

"my dream is you now"
"and you are mine"

that is you

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause boy you're amazing
Just the way you are

i wonder what is my 地位？

i did sometimes jealous others...


haiz~
=(

changes

there were a lots of changes.....

since...

clinical year started.

=(

Someone once said,
when U get little,
U want more,
when U get more,
U desire even more,
but when U lose it,
U realize that little was enough..

你欠我的

你欠我的
你欠我很多

所以
你没有资格不理我
没有资格不疼我
没有资格丢下我
没有资格不睬我
没有资格冷漠我

你欠我很多
很多！！！

欠债还钱！
你不准离开我！
哈哈！

阿貴動畫 - 不要不理我Remix

我还顶得住！

what else is worse than
when the time u need support and cares the most...

and end up with a stab and hurt ending..

i m fine!

i m totally fine!!

well done!

u make it!

but...
i still 顶得住！

what's next? wtf

i lost myself

i lost myself these few days...

i am not unhappy...
i am not emo / moody...

i just feel disappointed to myself..
and no energy and +ve spirit and support from behind.

i feel so lonely...
feel so lost...

and no mood in everything...

feel myself veli 失败!

haizzz...

i need a tap on my shoulders and
i need some support from alls...

i need a hug to make me feel secure

and a warm support to make me go on my journey~

我希望你把名字换回去。

因为

我不想把你名字换掉。

这虽是件小事，
但

我介意。

恕我幼稚。

nutrition support workshop 2010 HKL

well~ if u view my facebook... the pictures showed the stories!

it was quite nice i shud said...
food esp! awesome babe! ^^

then... quite some lectures seriously were great... esp mr gee's one... oops... perhaps mr tik's. haha XD

his lectures were the one i concentrated the most and absorbed the most... but... now i dun noe i still remember it ant la..

haha...
then... some others oso quite ok la...

take some free gifts of coz...

i shame to get the treat fr mr gee coz actually v x worked much...
juz show the way for the guest..
help tiny tiny things... like passing the mic... ting ting the guest to enter the hall... etc... haha

anyway... the hands-on section is nice...
no regret joining NG tube section and punch the pity anne's brain and skull... ==
haha XD

then after all and the all...
having dinner with committee in old town!

thx mr gee~
not oni the meal...

but the whole workshop!
i get benifit alots..

jokes, new friends, lectures, gifts, meals... etc etc~

end with a "GREAT" word i shud said!

bravo!

scared

everyone got his/her phobia...
everyone will feel nervous... scare and x secure...

phobia maybe phobia to height... darkness etc... (me)

scare maybe scare of someone and some tiny insect.
nervous and worry esp about the works and the study.. examination is always students' 1st worry~ (so do i)

x secure feeling between couple...
scare of fade...
scare of 3rd party...
scare of belief and lie...
of course currently scare of the sad history gonna reacting...

scare of x speech... x topic and talk...

hmm~

when alone...
really feel very kong xu (kx)

esp just back from home sweet home..

seriously...

i very miss you right now..
can u get it?

T__T

HOME

home sweet home~

this phrase nvr wrong!! haha XD

2bt 2 months x going back... finally im at bidor now! ^^

my house still remain same... clean...
and add on one new toy liao... haha XD
of coz i played it! ^^

home : full of food!
home : full of joy and noice!
home : full of tvb dramasssss!
home : my dearly bed and air con! ^^
home : X study! =( shit! haha XD
home : X nid use money!
home : THE BEST!!

only the weakness of home is...

without him!

hmm~ miss~ ^^

enjoys home everyone!!! happy holidayss!

bukit tinggi

i wonder what this place was... and how will it be?

see so many photos...

looks nice...

but duno~

haha...

lets having a trip there can? ^^

end of October! Happy Halloween! ^^

so fast... a month passed.

bare with me that being nerdy to say that : shit! surgery posting for few weeks.. gain sumthg for sure... but! PROF EXAM soon!!! my medicine! oh gosh~~~ ><

well well... enough for nerdy part!
lets look forward for the brand new month!!! NOVEMBER!! here i come!

hmm~ long time x going back Bidor ady...
nxt week thanks for deepavali... can balik kampung and take a rest!

seriously..
recently feel like myself aging...
easily get tired and no longer burning mid night oil... so healthy life perhaps...
like a granny that sleep early and wake up early!

and facebook inactive now... due to someone... of coz...

weekends become dull... but im ok... i enjoy staying indoor just like what i do in Bidor...

reali! wtf a retired lifestyle! AGING man!!!


I NEED YOUTH!!!!!!!! come on... lets stimulate me guys! pls...
i dun1 like an aunty! lols...

lets hav a blast in november! and
happy deepavali in advance to all my indian friends and happy holidays to all mates!


-to b continue- ^^

PMS!

i think most of girls will noe wat the Fxxx is PMS...

guys! let u noe!!!
pms= pre-menstrual syndrome!!

noe wat a menstrual is??? period!!!
ya... every month the girls will experience one!!!

which u all blame the girls emotional!
mood swing
difficult to serve... bla bla bla~~~~

etc etc

ya rite!!!

it that syndorme!!!

which im having now too wtf~

this period watever small a tiny thing can make u emo and frus~
but who will care wtf!!!!

end up guys will blaming the dai yi ma.. hormone inbalance...
who care to layan you!


what a typical and significant sign for it!

perhaps nxt week will be better wtf.
*&^%$#@#$%^&*()(*&^%$#
damn it~


T___T

Scrubbing~

tada~ MISS HONG??? hahaha XD
no way~ i dont think i wan to be a surgeon nxt time... but words alwis can say out so early la... hahaha XD

23-10-10 saturday,
we are having a scrubbing class in HKL OT!!!
lots fun having~
and here v go sharing pictures to tell u more the story~



Miss JOJO



Miss JUJU



haha... all balut hair and mask, cant u all recognize leh?
they are Mr Leung and Mr Moh..





Mr Low li tat is the funniest part liao! as funny like Ms Chua..
lols... he is the last person who scrub!
teach one by one by the nurse... and when learn how to wear the gown and glove... even 4 to 1 teaching~~~ he win liao lo!!! haha XD




this is a couple of surgeon. <3 haha XD





I m in OT finally!! ^^



take pic b4 leave - juju, jayanthi, durga and me!

well~ perhaps... u are not the one understand me!

i juz can laugh and say :

u actually not the one understand me!

u get me wrong.
totally wrong!

or perhaps i describe it wrong!

but then... i dont wanna explain to u guys...

i noe myself well!

i noe some noe me well!

but...

not u guys!

i found it out finally! ^^

时间

时间是个很恐怖的东西

过的超乎你想象得快

事与物

在不知不觉中
改变了

停下脚步时

我总会想
“你后悔了吗？”

然之，笑了笑

继续走~

不喜欢这种感觉

如果我突然消失在这世界上，有谁会发现？
你会流泪吗？或许开心的开香槟庆祝吧？哈哈~
我算什么呢？
世界如此大，原来没有一个角落容纳了我。
我想...我...只是我父母的女儿。

balitong~ balitong~

hahahaha... is nothg related to balitong~ saje use this title coz the name of balitong keep in my mind for a few hours...

hahaha...
end medicine posting finally~
surgery... here i cum... but i x get ready yet... that mean... prof 2 then =( hmmm~
WE SURE CAN PASS DE!!! yammmm~ sing~~~~ ^^

today went to genting with my gang...
keith, jessie, suen, yongli, aj, ah hooi and li tat!!!

casino is our aim~
haha XD
adrenaline shoot up when entering...
pretend dam ding and muka serious...

luckily the guard check for the one enuf aged... baru the underaged me, jess and aj berjaya slip into it!!! hahaha XD


play some some lo...
more to jian shi~ seeing the uncle auntie put the chips like put the lego... omg~
rm50 for them as if is 50cent~

haha...

overall... won some lo~ haha XD juz for fun nia... v not that like to gamble de... no money pun~

then... photo shoot time!!! non stop shooting zi ran photo!! hahahaXD

makan then balik lo... like that end out trip with a horrible bus driving~

make me wanna vommit and feel dizziness!!! wtf!!

anyway... super sleepy now... hmm~ wake up 5.30am today tot of 7.30am bus... mana tau... haha... 10.30am... go to eat dim sam 1st lo~ ><

k la... basically enjoy the trip... juz a relief btw exchanging posting...

gangs... all the best in following posting and prof 2!!!! v sure pass and cele in another trip again! yeah!! ^^

recent and later plan

TOday i earn my money by my skill!!! *proud of my hair setting skill* see??? without the knowledge or wtf the mgm examination or keusahawanan... i can earn money!! no nid to test on the stupid SAQ which i nid to glance thru 2 stupid notes and attend the exam in main campus then!!! DAMN!!!! >< *fyi i nvr study for the previous titas, kenegaraan or wtf pertanian even i gt the book to study*

hahaha... this year i din attend the medic nite...but i help some juniors and julia set their hair... n make up oso... yala yala... make up x my pro... but dun doubt my hair setting skill!! is much fast nice cheap than the mines... wakaka XD maybe i find my part time job liao... lolssss ^^ julian... rmb our share in future ya! ^^ haha XD

alrite!!! save me the money for the end posting trip... haha... hopefully i can enter the casino so that i wont juz sleep at the room... haha XD *oh ya.. nxt weekend gonna hav a outing to genting with my gang for end posting medicine b4 entering surgical posting... wtf! ya... end posting liao... damn fast... ask me wat had i learn??? eh~~~ hmm~~~ ah~~~ haizz~~~ then sunday morning come dwn fr the hills to attend sim buddy's convo... hopefully i can meet u all... congrates and take pic with u and ah heng!! ya... aiden heng f**k you! haha XD

then monday will b surgical posting and gonna drag myself to HKL early in morning and waiting for the surgeon mr g and prof liew... yerr~ segeon~ pa pa~~ ><

btw... nxt week is the last week in medicine... one long case to go... hmm~
is monday!!! juz now leader told me i will test on thurs, i like WTF!!! thurs??? luckily afif changed with me!! haha XD 1st time so earger wanna finish exam! ^^ but frankly... rest for so long... gotta forget some liao...
then monday plan go outing and buy convo present for buddy with little buddy lo~

wanna meet dr hiew in kajang~
of coz prof chris oso...
then~
iki ho and XL sing k section!!! but, xl off me wo... iki... how??? haha XD

then james. whn is our celebration??? v earn rm150 for the keusahawanan leh~~~ damn pro man!! ^^

cia cia who is my sis in law to be saying wanna come find me leh?? when when when??? anticipate... wasai...
so planning and busy week lo~~ hahaha.. indicate---> i m broke liao papa, mama...

haizzz.. duno when will back hometown ya... hope when i balik bidor then... papa, there is a brand new car welcoming me ady la ^^

k... to b con~ tc guys~

H-C-T-I-B

behave urself!

pls make clear the limitation that u cant cross...

even v are frens...
even im kinda "da fang"...

but pls... respect me awhile...

I AM STILL ALIVE!!!

thankiu~

communicating

this is the most difficult creation of the god.

the same issue...

from different people's mouth...

will bring totally different emotions.

兄弟

长得不怎么好看
唯有做笑，结兄弟

虽知开玩笑
虽知把你当兄弟才如此

但是虽知
毕竟是女的

女生天生就是小气
天生就是想被疼被保护

我的脸长得很抱歉
不是美女
不用讨好
大家兄弟般的说笑

但有时候
我也希望被呵护

我不介意被欺负
可能我脸就是长得一副好欺负的样

说真的
我明白，被欺负其实跟你好
不然我才懒得鸟你，对吧？
哈哈~

但我真的怀疑我为什么长得那么好欺负吗？

爸爸~
我想你了~

因为只有你永远不会欺负我~
只有你当我是你的小公主

爸爸！你最好了！！
T__T

月饼节快乐！！！

哈哈~
祝大家中秋节快乐！

中秋节，
算是个特别的节日。
算是大日子。

向热热闹闹的做节.

不想一个人过。=（

辽阔的世界里的一个很小的角落

这世界，多么大。

我只是占据一个很小很小的角落。

每天，
世界会发生很多很多事情。

你我的快乐，
悲伤，
烦恼等等。

其实，只是唯不足道的小事。

伤心难过不快乐的，

何不把它忘了？

重新开始呢？

路要继续走。
更何况，

今日不懂明日事。

把今天，
当成生命的最后一天。

完成你要做的事，
珍惜该珍惜的。

不要执着于一些有的没的。

当你能看到明天的阳光，
就珍惜吧！

别留遗憾。

好听的话

好听的话，谁都爱听
有哪个女生不爱听甜言蜜语？
有哪个女生不爱被称赞？
有哪个女生爱听被批评的话？
有哪个女生爱听丑，胖，和被嫌难看没品味？

好挺动人的话，
真的很悦耳。

难听的话，
虽然有时赞同，有时是事实，
但就是不爱听。

可以的话，
多些赞美
少些批评。

我懂批评为了好处
但。。。

人重视有感觉，尤其是女生，

脸皮不厚，
留些余地

赞美安慰。


我喜欢 boss 今天的一句。哈哈！*爽~*
^^

tom and jerry!

Some relationship are like TOM n Jerry.
They tease each other.
They knock down each other.
They irritate each other.
But they can't live without each other.


thx juju sharing this... it makes my day! ^^

行不通

这个办法真的行不通的！

你到底有没有想过的啊？
=(

medicine

i felt so weak.

m i in the right tract?

can i be like them??

but i seems blank... and blur.

shit! can i pass???

b4 i killed the patient... the doctors will kill me...

haha...

god... gimme energy and spirit and making me become smarter and cleverer plsss... thx. =(

好久不见

最近如何？
我懂你好像过得还不错。

20100709 超級星光大道 13.閻奕格:讓一切隨風

梁文音 我不是你想像那麼勇敢 MV (完整版) [With Lyrics]

阿妹A MEI/阿密特 A MIT - 掉了 完整 MV

need a hug badly

HAIZZZZZZZ~~~

-D.E.P.R.E.S.S.I.O.N-

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我来到 你的城市
走过你来时的路
想像着 没我的日子
你是怎样的孤独
＃拿着你 给的照片
熟悉的那一条街
只是没了你的画面
我们回不到那天＃
＊你会不会忽然的出现
在街角的咖啡店
我会带着笑脸 挥手寒喧
和你 坐着聊聊天
我多么想和你见一面
看看你最近改变
不再去说从前 只是寒喧
对你说一句 只是说一句
好久不见＊

=(

可以不要给我乱想东西吗？
=(

非要把我弄乱不可。
高低起伏。
期待－－〉落空－－〉又再希望－－〉有落空

我不爱玩云霄飞车
那种不踏地的不安全感
很空。

哪怕那么一天
累了
倦了
有其他的依赖时

我又要讲那句话了。
你会想听吗？
还是

你在等我说。

AveMaria

婚姻是浪漫的，但我觉得只是那一霎那。但女生被感动到，说我愿意那一刻，我觉得要么就是她们无知被感动而异。要么就真的很勇敢。勇敢？对！真的很有勇气！当要加入另一个完全不属于自己的家庭在组织一个属于自己一辈子的家庭。要做老婆该做的。要做妈妈该做的。甚至一些职业女性要做爸爸该做的!就这样，一辈子！再也没有以前谈年爱时期的甜蜜了。所以，请不要被一时的感动，做错决定。更何况当你谈年爱时期都以不怎么有浪漫和甜蜜的时候，好耗三思呀。而我，就如此！

*手交给你 一生交给你
在你眼里 看见我自己
直到白头 谁都不会离弃
永恒看得见 幸福在心底
牵你手心 相伴一世纪
我会永远 承诺保护你
直到我们 连皱纹都老去
也会让你开心不哭泣
我们的爱 没有四季 每一分钟都二十五度C
我们的爱 今生不渝 天涯海角也都会有痕迹
我们的爱 心有默契 不管是谁会先停止呼吸
Ave Maria *

新娘们，祝你们幸福！你们勇气可嘉。小妹暂佩服！

矛盾

人生充满矛盾
有时你明明很想这样
但却不敢或不能
可是心里却揪着揪着

haiz~
就是这样
如此

矛盾！

我回来了！

哈哈~
好像有一阵子没update了。

上两个星期，回家一趟了。心情调试了不少。又从新的感觉。
从家回来，也是上个星期，病了一个礼拜。倒霉~
星期一差点在医院晕倒，感谢几位houseman和护士给了我painkiller。谢谢~这就是唯一在医院的好处---〉得到免费的第一服务和药物。哈哈！
隔天，体弱的我，病倒了。曾经怀疑为denggi。当晚我很烧，怕死的我早已敲锣打鼓告诉iki,julia,和他以防万一。哈哈！也就这样，我可爱的老板，为我好，“逼”我看医生。哈哈~我喜欢这种“大男人”的逼法。哈哈~变态！
当然，也因生病的事，和他小吵了一下。但当然没事啦！其实他的关心，比谁都强，是看不到的，听不到的但我知道的，我感受到。他这份人，其实，哈哈~真的有种说不出的好。^^
连连续续，病病，喉咙痛，咳嗽。可到现在还有。haizzz...我就是一个不听话的医生。整天不定时吃药。而且这里没有我生病想吃的东西。吃bubur吃到嘴也歪了。没关系。。。这礼拜回家！好好调养！yeah!

对！我又回家啦！哈哈哈！真开心！
老公也回家，我当然不会呆在宿舍啦~ 费事相思病重。呵呵~
但他明天就走了。=（
没有XXX的日子。。。DAY1 即将开始到 DAY7。
呜~
哈哈哈~原谅我的痴情与恶心。哈哈~
嗨哟~我表面看来吊儿郎当的傻大姐。心里的那个我。。。哈哈~你们可走眼了~哈哈~

明天。。。又是新的一天。
在担心我6礼拜来和6礼拜剩。。。
脑子还是空空。。。

顺-其-自-然 吧！
并肩作战吧朋友！
加油！

i cried when the song sang at last... coz is so deeply true in my heart.

蝴蝶眨几次眼睛 才学会飞行
夜空洒满了星星 但几颗会落地
我飞行 但你坠落之际
很靠近 还听见呼吸
对不起 我却没捉紧你

你不知道我为什麽离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨 碎了满地
在心里清晰
你不知道我为什麽狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是 你不知道的事

蝴蝶眨几次眼睛 才学会飞行
夜空洒满了星星 但几颗会落地
我飞行 但你坠落之际
很靠近 还听见呼吸
对不起 我却没捉紧你

你不知道我为什麽离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨 碎了满地
在心里清晰
你不知道我为什麽狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是 你不知道的事

我飞行 但你坠落之际

你不知道我为什麽离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨 碎了满地
在心里清晰
你不知道我为什麽狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是 你不知道的事

有感而发

在面子书找到一些经典而我百感深受：

1。开始的开始总是甜蜜的 后来就有了厌倦、习惯、背弃、寂寞、绝望和冷笑 曾经渴望与一个人长相厮守，后来，多么庆幸自己离开了 曾几何时，在一段短暂的时光里， 我们以为自己深深的爱着的一个人。 后来，我们才知道 那不是爱，那只是对自己说谎。

2。你以为不可失去的人，原来并非不可失去， 你流干了眼泪，自有另一个人逗你欢笑， 你伤心欲绝，然后发现不爱你的人， 根本不值得你为之伤心， 今天回首，何尝不是一个喜剧？ 情尽时，自有另一番新境界， 所有的悲哀也不过是历史。

3。爱情总是想象比现实美丽， 相逢如是，告别亦如是。 我们以为爱得很深、很深， 来日岁月，会让你知道，它不过很浅、很浅。 最深最重的爱，必须和时日一起成长。

4。因为爱情的缘故， 两个陌生人可以突然熟络到睡在同一张床上。 然而，相同的两个人，在分手时却说，我觉得你越来越陌生。 爱情将两个人由陌生变成熟悉，又由熟悉变成陌生。 爱情正是一个将一对陌生人变成情侣，又将一对情侣变成陌生人的游戏。

5。最浪漫的爱是得不到的。 最浪漫的情话，是当哪个已经跟你分了手的人打电话来问："你好吗？" 你稀松平常地回答："我很好。" 而其实你还爱着他，你一点也不好。 男人伪装坚强，只是害怕被女人发现他软弱。 女人伪装幸福，只是害怕被男人发现她伤心。

就这样，又一个星期了。

这星期，不是很满意。

感觉自己很没用，很差，自卑。
加上一些外来元素。整体来讲，这星期我给4/10。唉~

无论如何，今天我在医院看到一位有产后忧郁症（PPD）的妈妈和她老公的对话，让我无比的心酸与感动。我的心，软得像什么一样。场面很感动。
她老公城上班前，去看这名PPD的女生，
女的一看到她老公，抱他的颈项，哭了。何说要回家。
老公温柔又向哄小孩般说：你乖乖听医生话，赶快好起来，就能回家啦。
女的还在哭。
老公：“不要哭，乖~别哭。老公不喜欢看到你哭。”
*天呀，就是这一句。我心软了。*
老公要赶着上班。要走了。她说灯下再来看她，别哭，要乖，赶快好起来。摸摸她。走了两步，又不舍得的回来，叫她别哭。可是，由于真的赶时间。不舍得也要去上班呀。
之后，医生的巡房，更为感动了。病人比昨天合作多了。医生也温柔多了。医生握着她的手，和她说“你会好的，放心！你会好的！” 场面温馨且感动。
*啊~那时又那么一下下羡慕她。她老公那句话，真的很感动。我很羡慕。*


可是今天临回前，坐在巴士上看到一件可悲的事。我看到一位病人，还吊着IV DRIP。
在医院外面，把IV DRIP 吊在树上。
和她的朋友抽烟。
什么东西呀~ 没眼看~ ==

好啦~就写这么多吧。以李白累积，很累。休息。。希望下李白会更好。但愿如此啰~

七月的最后一天...

我哭了
哭得心都干了
哭了好久
好久

就这样
把心哭干了
倦了
睡了

以为自己能看透
以为自己能哭透

隔天带着的是一双浮肿的眼睛
哭干了的心

侥幸的是
心还在跳着
血还在流着
流进来的是竟然是咸咸的

那不是汗
又是泪

我不想再哭了
即使咸咸的
腌着我的心肌
很痛很难过
就像伤口上的盐巴
我终于明白
为何泪是咸的

疲惫的笑了笑
因为我说过
累了就歇一歇吧
总有个肩膀给你依靠的
不是他... 是家。

没了粉红色的天空
还有蓝色的，紫色的... 还有美罗那片天空
没了甜味，至少还能品尝到苦咸辣酸...
和妈妈的佳肴
力量，再也不是来自他，
幸福来自家。

家离我好远
他离我更远
但心里还是希望能尝到甜味
和看见粉红色的天空

视线还是离不开他
可是
我不能
我必须要保护自己的心肌
让它继续跳下去
我不想再掉泪了
因为
我倦了

很想认识小叮当
向他借那时光倒流机
找回开心的我...

another week...

hmm... getting and getting to adapt to the life.
not yet adapt fully but getting to... i hope and believe i can ^^

everyday is happening day...
every week is happening week...

this is call life.
full of uncertain and unexpected.

anyway... nxt week is another week... another new month... and i gonna adapt that i gonna change into another grp. PROF CHRIS and GRP 2 members... hope i can join u all well. ^^

rite... this week... recall what had happen...
on call for 1st time...
clerk the 1st hand cases... 7 cases in a nite...
do septic workout venipuncture...
comforting and listening "psycological problem" patients...

everyday meeting many many things and people...
hmm~ dats shud b my life.
people in people go.
death shud b usual to us.
accident will happen every single moment. (not only patients but oso ourselves)
listen to many comments and ideas... days to days getting influence and change in mind. lots lots lotsssssssss~~

TGIF. is firday and weekends ahead. ^^v
weekends is nice...
nicer even im at home. but then... haizz... nvrm lo~~ ><

hav a rest in weekends. recharge and looking forward another week to routine... LIFE~

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY AH HOOI~ ^^

last tuesday... 20th july... our coursemate ah hooi birthday. Once again... v went to pizza hut alamanda to celebrate his big day again! ^^ haha XD

same like last year... a gang of us went pizza hut to cai cheong! haha XD





they all my dear coursematesss!!! =P


this is AJ! ^^


ah hooi~ the birthday boy!! ^^


mcgoh, XL and jess and suen! ^^


jojo and her dear ah moh...


seriously i hate this photo till the max!!! >< he is keith and she is iki... ><


iki bff!


yee tong~




they all my housematess! ^^







here come ah hooi! happy birthday! friendship 4eva! see ya nxt time in pizza hut again... hahaha XD

new life... JOANNA in 1st week MEDICINE posting!

hey guyss... heeelooo again! hmm... introduce myself... i create a new name of "JOANNA"... for my new life begin perhaps. wahaha... joke jer la... is a long story behind the name of Joanna which i lazy to mention it here. lols...

1st week. hospital serdang... medicine posting start initially.

soli to say dat i m still blur and adapting.
is so so so different from preclinical life and lots thing to learn and challenge ahead. hmm... i hope to get through all these... perhaps... i hope i can pass my exam well. coz... i got no supervisor to guild me along... T___T i am so so worried till max about my exam ahead... i prepared to failed? gone my cny... T___T *so tension and nervious which u all x understand. haizzz...~

what had i did this week.
CHDW is my ward to stay for this week actuali but of coz... there are too few cases and nthg to do... so i run to others ward la. btw. the MO DR. Ruben there is so handsome and quite nice. sister and nurses there oso nice but reali nthg much +ve finding there and the life at CHDW is x that crutial. so... juz clerk a few patients and do PE lo. the patient all quite well there and cooperative. so veli ez clerk and PE. ^^

btw... x yet intro my boss --> thee! he is my chaperon and oso qin le. v go 2gether.
im PA of thee ady. hahahaha... anyway... another boss... who is a super nice HO grad fr china (wad 7B)... DR. LEE!!! haha... this boss is nice! not only him la... the other boss at 7B and C r quite nice. giving us chance to do ABG... observe the CVP line insertion and oso ureteral cath.... cannulae... all those thing...

many many 1st expose to us...
evrythg is new.

with the help of HO... and MO... v saw many thing... did many procedures...
*still learning process coz the ABG taking is guide by a cute HO. lols...

then... 1st DIL encounter. hmmm...
v see many many situation... malaysia system... moral value... human personality during clinical. not oni cases cases and cases...

of coz... rite now... passing exam is the main purpose for me. frankly to say dat. rite now... i x determine of being a goo doctor but a good medical student who can pass all her exam. ya.. frank to tell this. coz i reali2 veli worry abot it... ==

hmmm... what else to say... 1st week... passed like this. quite interesting but tired... journey still going on. gambateh is a must. best of luck is a wish~ lols.
hope i can get thru all the challenges...

lots new things have to study. lots old things need to study as well. forget liao... haiz... and must noe how to link all the things together... is the part i hav to improve.

haiz... hope all the best for following daysssss la...
jia you HONG PEIYI!

broadband

thx bro. repair my laptop... now... i got a new broadband and can on9 liao. since new sem... cant on9 at kolej liao coz the stupid pejabat close it. now i can on9 in kolej... keep update... even in bidor liao! yeah! haha XD

2day i got a heavy mood swing...
since entering clinical life... i x pernah rest my tension down and force to push a smile in face. i hardly happy. or i shud say... since day1... i x happy. till now... i x happy. i emo. but i pretend nthg.

mood swing suddenly... miss him dat time so much.
feeling myself so far apart from all the others.

everythg to me like so strange... so scare... so unsecuire. i tot the oni thing i familiar with is YOU... but... 2day... i emo. i miss past much. i felt so apart. i kx... i lost... then i cried.

now eventually emotion under control. i wan back the previous spirit and hong peiyi. i wan my life back. hopefully~ T.T

clinical week 2... i lost my voice.

i lost my voice... cant rag juniors... is ok...
cant clerk patients even...
hope my voice will get well soon.

btw, is 2nd week... still intro week.
i saw so many and lots and lots of my coursemates went here went there... join class and finding seniros...

HONG PEIYI... is hopeless, uselfess and empty!
SHE DID NOTHG!

wat u gain???
s.t.r.e.s.s
D.P.R.E.S.S.E.D

haiz... will i b fine for these??? idk...

can i carry on the life?? can i pass it???
or issit too early fro me?? but y r they so???

haiz...

new life...

clinical year started finally after the long resaerch and joyful holiday.
2day is Day 3 ady.
seriously... i reali reali veli not used to it. =( i x adapt to it yet.

blur and stress r wat all ppl having oso rite now i noe...

i feel myself lost so much these 3 days.
and moody...

x reali study much and prepared yet.

D1 i went out with my gangs to do sumthg special.
D2 stunt by Mr Gee... seeing all ppl around trying working their best 4 the new life... but me? wat m i doing? anyway... since his bufday 2day... i force myself to "happy" in front him with my heart is totally tired and stress like hell. yet lost.
D3 having class later. moody since D1 and worsen and worsen. not oni becoz of academic stuff thg... and oso some others thg that make myself doubt my value.

i x dare to say i need u... but i reali do... i noe u wont care abt it. coz everyone is all in no mood... but i m serously veli veli moody that i ever had b4 rite now. =(

D4... D5... D6... hope will b better then.

=(

别让我乱想。
别让我猜。

我逼自己不要乱想。暂时。

btw... 明天seminar...
大家加油！

exhausted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

super double hyper watever-per~~ I AM DAMN F**king tired!!!

haha... now~ im at A.4.1.3!!! new room! new house! old housemates of coz~

cheah yin and jojo still busy cleaning up...
jessie place still a mess...
where is suen and julian??? haha XD

housemates... make sure dun too mess up A.G.1 tau... nanti kena blacklist... hehe..

2day early morning (9am) konon early to me... hehe... woke up--> pejabat--> take key---> then... TIME TO WORK!!!!

i told u... seriously... move fr ground floor to 4th floor... is killing!!! yet i got lotsssss clothessss... shoessss... and stufffff...NO shopping anymore pls Hong Peiyi!!! *hehe... will u belive it?? nyehehe...*

lols... finally... after 3 hours toturing... i felt myself thin 10 kg ad... wahaha XD
after last year sepak takraw... i x pernah exercise ady...
OKAY!!! one year quota finished~ no dating me to bukit expo this year okay? =P

later hav to meet supervisor some more... oh gosh... Dr, u will see a cachexia paralysed patients later... hehe..

take a deep brief~ hmm... higher the air reli like fresher... cheh~~ hehe XD
well... gt to hav a rest la...

welcome to our new house then... make a 进火酒 party housemates!!! yey~ hehehe XD

summary of this fews weeks...

i went back to bidor last week... hmm... nothing much happen actually... just everything as usual... not reali nice actually this hometown back this time.

1st : becoz all my hometown friends duno die to where ad... go working... so no gathering and no yumcha.. i stay at home be 宅女 oni... haha... of coz boiling drama is my favourite. but the dvd print out slower than i boiled... esp 谈情说案。i like this drama lots. but too bad... i chase it too fast... haiz... so... few of the days i watched back 绝代双骄 and 栋笃神探。super lame me i noe... but wat to do, cant on9 even at home ma... haha XD

2nd : my daddy x at malaysia. he go vietnam 公干ad... so i m bored without him... hehe... i m his little princess and 上辈子的情人。daddy... i miss you so much... happy father's day btw... hehe XD juz becoz daddy x at malaysia... dats y i forced to go home and accompany mama... dats the reason i go back actually... hehe... daddy, u x at malaysia... yet dat stupid Hong Yuming and his gf come back hor... not fun de! not fun de~ coz they are the one gang... bully me la pulak... haiz...
还是你最好daddy, u same gang with me to bully mama... hahahaha XD

3rd : recently i felt myself veli tense up... my brain think of many thingssss... i close my eyes think of many many things nia... all the brain is with planning all that... i feel so tiring to my brain thinking so much thing... at home shud b relax one... but everytime i close my eyes... then automatically... think of moving house la... seminar la... 3rd year ady la... this la... that la... WTF >< *phew* dats y i think i not realy enjoy myself and relax myself. I tot i go back home... wont think of anythg and charge@ refresh myself de... but... haiz... i juz hope evrythg run smooth as i wish... ><

4th : i want share sumthg to u all... omg... 世界变了。通常是父母被孩子气死。可是，我家两老，尤其是母亲，常常会起到我puke blood.. haiz... 他门不同哪来的观念。又想过她女儿我是什么新鲜萝卜皮吗？想想你们有资格如此白鸽吗？haiz... 将心比心，娘~ 你可别忘了婆婆是怎样对你们的。你们。。。haiz... 用脑想想吧。到底我是孩子还是你们啊。我不喜欢你们酱。很不对！很不回想。可是，我通常都是费事睬你们，懒得辩驳。但有时，真的会被你们气死。

5th : 说到这，心情就低落了。算！换个焦点。TOY STORY 3！！！ 我要看！！！I despo it since last year ady... jom jom jom!!! ^^ hahaha XD

6th : today is last night at AG1.. each year oso move house la me... >< sienzz... so many things to carry to 4th floor... omgggg~ 想到就。。。zzzz

7th : seminar... pls... pass it asap... ASAP!!!!! haiz... and smooth of coz... god bless... i m sieness till max ady...

8th : dats all... to be con... ><

post copyright fr Cheah Yin

1.当你收到“你干嘛呢？” 实际上是想说“我想你了”

2.当你收到“呵呵”，多是没笑或者傻笑

3.但如果是“哈哈” “嘿嘿”或者“嘎嘎”，这时你打过去一定是在笑

4.说你“傻瓜” “笨蛋” 其实是关心你，担心你，希望你照顾好自己

5.如果是问句结束，其实是希望能和你多聊一会儿

6.“哦”多半是在敷衍

7.但如果是“知道啦” “收到” “遵命”之类的则表示比较在意

8.有时劝你忙自己的，其实他口是心非

9.把他的傻事 丢脸的或是失落的事告诉你，是希望你安慰他，开导他，甚至骂骂他

10.主动发给你，说明你在他心目中有一定的分量，一般人不喜欢和不在意的人罗嗦

11.如果给你起外号，是希望你可以记住他多一点

12.“我刚到” “我已经到家咯”说明进屋第一个想到的是你

13.“你到家了就告诉我一声啊” “你到家了没啊？”意思是我要你一定平安，我不许你有事

14.有时不会那么巧就错发给你，可能是他想发给你又实在没东西发，虽然这样很蠢

15.收到“转发2人会幸福哦”，是他觉得这条短信很有意思，但是又不忍心让你转发给10个人，就偷偷的把10改成了2

16.凡是那种“不转发就会不幸”诅咒性质的，他不是没有收到过，但是绝不会转发给你

17.有一阵你没有收到过他的短信，但并不代表他草稿箱里没有

18.如果可能，他晚上不关机就是因为你

i found this post veli interesting and more than half is true for me!

secret

tell you all a secret. perhaps is no longer a secret anymore now. haha XD

actually.. is not my 1st time blogging. i had a blog before. and oso till now... i do update dat blog.
that is a private blog... instead of blog. i would like to say that is a diary.

that private blog is neither sharing my daily life nor my story...

actually that blog is a secret space between me and HIM.
haha...

now...
i got another blog for u all... all the people that i care and care about me.
interested in wat my life actually is...

then... i will keep myself update it. hopefully can share with u all alwis. ^^

Say Welcome to Me ^^

Hey guys... couldn't believe that i had my own public blog finally!! ^^

Since free recently and influece by some of my friends, so why not i open a blog as well... and sharing my stories to all i care.

I am new here... feel free drop by... stop ur work... hav a rest and take a look of my sharing... ^^

hope u all like it...
多多指教。

^^