last and start!

today is the last day of 2010..
today is the last posting in surgery...
and
i fall a sick.
hope is the last day of my sickness... shu shu...
here welcome my pretty new 2011!!!

revealed of the year,

times fly.

so fast a year gone.

so many things had happened..

start will early of 2010,

i went to genting and countdown with my bidor frens..
but this year i didn't. Prof 2 exam is ahead. and realy wish me good luck. i so scare to fail it... ><
anyway, im sick! so... p/s : i oso confuse wat m i typing... lols

then here go my sem 2 of year 2...

1st day of it was my Big Day!! ^^ haha... so fast a a year gone...
like jz happened yesterday..

research time.
omg paeds, u all stop crying can anot??!!!
but anyway, finished our job at last after so many difficulities and conflict!! ^^

then v gone thru prof 1 exam!!
v studied and v passed!!! ^^ hope prof 2 same as well..

after exam... Singapore time!!!
in my memory, i been there b4 when i was super young~
now, iki, me, keith, yongli, julian, jinkit and hooi... a gang of best frens hao hao dang dang de go!! ^^


then super damn fast!!!
a new sem come... here new buddy come in and say bye to dr sim ^^

CLINICAL YEAR!!!
woohoo~ i cant imagine v are in 3rd year that time~
we know nothg and felt afraid in clinical.
but... see...
so fast MEDICINE posting gone thru liao...
thx for prof chris, Dr Hiew, Dr Kow etc etc..
u all teach alot and i learnt too *p/s: does nt mean i remember!><
clerking, present, short case, long case, murmur, creps, rhochi, reflex bla bla bla~~

after the mock exam of medicine... a gang of fren went up to casino!! ^^
haha

then here i stepped into SURGERY posting..
initially i so scared of those surgeon.
their aura are so strong~
but truely...
all surgeon they are so yao ying!!!
Prof Liew, veli kind fahter like and knowledgable!!
Mr Gee, oh... u are a crazy man!!! u are brilliant and nice wei~ ^^
and Prof Meah... u are so sweet and learnt lots from u~ ^^
and today...
lasted the posting and here fighting for prof 2!!
good luck to me and alls.

and in between wat i mention. of coz there are friend's bufday celebration.
v all grown up and x playing those funny game like 1st sem of 1st year ady.
just normal a dinner with the bufday stars~

and of coz...
thru out the year,
sad,
happy,
nervous,
tension,
excited,
all emotion i went thru.

thx to my friends
my family
my supervisors and lecturers
my patients
the strangers around me

and of coz YOU,

haha...
thx for u guys..
lighten my 2010.

and here come our 2011!!!
wish all ppl,
all the best!!
and healthy alwis~ ^^

hohoho~

MERRY CHRISTMAS to u all~

wish to see once such romantic Christmas environment in my life time lo!

may all people...
bless all people..
happy and stay healthy alwis!!!

and happy new year ahead<3

mock exam

mock exam for surgery is on going...

and nxt week will be the last week of the posting and here go 2 weeks of study week b4 the nightmaire of prof exam 2!

2day...
seriously,
i felt disappointed to my performance!

sorry mr gee..
sorry for myself!

when put in panic and stress... i could not think even i noe the ans.

haizz...
what ashame...

medical doctor to be??

i dun1 to harm my patients...

i wonder..
would i pass and keep on my journey??

bless me!!!
gambateh!

汤圆！

谢谢aj， 泯俊等人~
谢谢你们的汤圆！！！

冬至，
后悔没有跟家人过节。
但起码，

你们温馨的汤圆
令我感动！真的！

汤圆就像生日蛋糕~
俩者都是一年一次~
都是吃过了，大一岁！

可是，
却有人认为
“汤圆。反正不重要！一年才一次！”

唉~
我只能说：
我们想法很不同！

anyway~

汤圆！
我今年吃过了！！！
我有大一岁了！！！
^^

sometimes,
i do get disappointed still..

冬至快乐

原来，你们在偷偷留意我 -full stop-

寒冷的夜晚，雨嘀嗒嘀嗒

每当夜深人静

躺在床上

头脑开始要休息时

我
都会

想起你。

recently

recently nthg went right with me

is not emo..
i control it well de... believe me... i reali think myself veli 厉害 ady!
but then...
if a building without any support...
who wont fall down??

the suck ever is that u are restricted and profited to get into any bad mood anymore...
then...

who gonna to dig me out fr the hole?
who gonna to shine for me?

supposingly is you..
but almost the result end up disappointing.

but yet i proud of myself being controlling and try to make the thing alright back...
BY MY OWN!!!

yes!!! my own~


who's on earth can understand me???

my friends..
my academics..
my partner...
my figure aka appearance..
my personality..
exam..

allllll those suck thing strike me in a same moment.

i cant digest it man!!!

i m tired la...
i insomnia for quite sometimes ady...

u all thinking im enjoying life???
perhaps... u are the one who enjoying life.

i x say im pity!

i still can cope with it...

i hope god...
be fair to me abit...
gib me back my basic need.

lead me back the right track!

i will try my own best..
but

seriously~

i need HELP and support..

想通了，看开了

想通了
看开了

虽然有时还会难过

但

此时此刻

我是ok的！
^^

don't ask why..

just be my side...

a hug maybe automatically reveal u the reason in the end.

try.

有一种爱叫放手

有一种爱叫放手

是问天下有何几伟大的人物？

你是其中一位吗？

我是吗？

appreciate life plss...

i think the whole malaysian know what is happening..
the hottest news!

haizz...
i do reali felt sad..
sad x becoz of his death.. is due to... what the hell on earth still got such brainless ppl exist in the world...
is it valuable just for LOVE?? u think u are veli "wei da" and all ppl will sympathy u and blame the girl???
NOPE!!! IDIOT RUBBISH!!!

have u go to the hospital before???
went to ICU??? or critical zone???
the patients are so ill and chronic yet they are trying their veli best to gasp the air to survive...
they got cancersssss, infectionsssssss, amputationsssssss, chronic illness...

BUT THEY WANT SURVIVE!!!

family members and patients with tears and begging us doctors to save us.
we are trying the best to save them.

but sad for the world...
some idiot rubbish still choose to die for love..

commit suicide..

jump down like a superman u think u are hero??
and guilty to the girls???

pls la...

ur organs except for the brain... at least can be used to save other chronic patients who want to survive!

i duno why u take life as so fragile and like a fun playing~
it totally pissed off.
anyway,
r.i.p

and for others...

love ur life no matter wat happening...
love ur life more than loving others!!!

think about the chronic patients who wish to survive.

i miss home

i miss home again.. although few days before i just went back..

home is so nice...

nice in the way...
got TV (at least got some sounds around)
got daddy and mummy (although they will only be at home at night... at least i got something to talk and discuss with them)

NOW,
4 cool walls surrounding me...

the environment does not sound nice. (perhaps it was nice initially)

no topic.

nothing.
nothing in my mind now. except..

i miss home..

Tangled/Rapunzel Soundtrack - I See The Light (with lyrics on screen)

Rapunzel~

"i love you so much, dear"
"i love you more"
"i love you most!!"

"my dream is you now"
"and you are mine"